I feel like writing about my life, cause I don’t know who else I can really talk to about it to get it out.
I feel like these past seven months have all been a lie. I don’t really know how to explain it, it just seems like a dream. We were supposed to be together forever (I know it sounds stupid, but that’s how I felt and that’s what he thought too) it’s weird because we both thought everything was supposed to work out. Then everything went down hill. Its like I completely lost interest in him, I was bored with him, I no longer was attracted to him and I have no clue why. I hate it how I become bored with people after a few months. Will anyone ever keep me entertained my whole life?
Then Friday I had sex with this guy from school. Oh my god I regret it so much. He was horrible…. I don’t even know why I did it, maybe to get over my ex completely? I don’t really know, was not worth it at all. And now he like avoids me at school probably cause he knew it was horrible, haha like I care, I don’t want anything to really do with the kid anymore. After that day I just kind of like became un-attracted to him.
But I feel so alone, I just want someone to talk to all the time. That’s why I like being relationships, just so ill always have someone there for me.
I don’t wanna be the person I was last year..
